I have changed from a violent, loveless drug addict to a man who is happily married and full of love
But then he just started laughing and made a face that seemed to say, “That story makes no sense.” So I asked him how the leader answered his question, and Lawrence’s laughter came to a sudden stop. He told me the Bible study leader took his question seriously and started by admitting that he wasn’t sure. That impressed Lawrence as humble and sincere.
In the course of all that thinking, reading and debating, some of the things that I believe as a Christian have shifted and changed. Critically though, while I've heard every objection to God going, my faith is actually stronger.
“I know I am loved. I trust him and his perfect love. There is no room for fear,”
Christianity was also, to my surprise, radical – far more radical than the leftist ideologies with which I had previously been enamoured.
So I started to look (really look) for this atheistic evidence on Jesus. I trawled bookshops for books on atheism. I scoured atheist websites. I read detailed, hostile reviews of “The Case for Christ”. I listened to and read articles and interviews with well known atheists. I read the New Testament for myself. I read biographies and critiques of Jesus by non-Christians. I did this when I was an agnostic. I still do this today as a follower of Jesus.
It is what we worship which really governs the trajectory of our lives, not our well intentioned resolutions.. Mere aspirations prove to be powerless in the face of the power of worship, because finally our behaviour will always default to being an expression of what we value most
An angry sceptic, discovers God's love for him, at university. Nathaniel's story!
I couldn’t explain through science alone where morality came from, or why humans feel such a desperate desire to find meaning and purpose. I held that atheism and therefore nihilism was true, but saw the inconsistency of my own strong conscience and need for meaning. Christians seemed to have better answers as to where to find meaning and purpose than nihilism, scientism or atheism.
Phil's faith was tried and tested when his Dad died suddenly when he was 21. The result is that today he has an infectious enthusiasm for Jesus. Read his story in his own words. New on the Solas blog.